不知為何
想起這首歌
一整天不斷反覆
應該聽了有上百遍吧
然後停止
像來時一樣突然
似乎身體裡有某個開關
比機器人更虛無的某種執迷
來去不由己
You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
While looking me directly in my eyes
This is not ecstasy, but it's better than cocaine
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
but I'm not equipped to play this game
You know your words
They don't mean anything to me
They only serve to fatten up the prey
And when it's time to take them to the slaughterhouse
you slice their throats, continue on your way
This is not jeopardy
and it's not your high school prom
and you know that I will miss you when you're gone
But I'm not equipped to be your mom
You are a drug to me
I never ever thought it otherwise
And I love the lies you've told to me
while looking me directly in my eyes
2009-07-22
2009-07-15
Mirrors are no defense against nausea by Peter Horn
（René Magritte, Reproduction Prohibited, 1937）Every morning
I switch on my electric razor
to trim my beard
into respectable proportions.
The face in the mirror
has grown stranger
over the years
and I have refused it permission
to use my name.
I tried very hard not to see
what happened behind the mirror.
Nobody likes to be reminded
of the shortness of life.
But the flaking mercury
made the mirror a window
into the chasm.
From：The Rivers that Connect us to the Past & Survivors, p.86
2009-07-01
John Berger X Sebastião Salgado / The Spectre of Hope (2002)
I, I am here. I exit.
But also something else happening. Because they are looking at Sebastião, and they are looking at the camera, and they know that they are looking at the world.
So they address a question: what are you? You, out there in the world? Or, is there anything else out there?
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It is not pleasant to die, lord, if nothing is left in life.
And in death nothing is possible, except on the bases of what is left in life.
It is not pleasant to die, lord, if nothing is left in life.
And in death nothing is possible, except on the bases of what one could have left in life.
2009-06-19
2009-05-30
2009-04-29
The Good Shepherd
A good intelligence agent should be always interesting in complicate, difficult details. This film itself is full of that kind of details, directed by Robert de Niro.
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Information is power. Dis-information is power. The ability to make information and dis-information, without showing any sign of the power behind, is critical pivotal power.
To own that power, you must set the very yourself into the net of information and dis-information, destructure yourself whatever black or white, moral or immoral, pessimistic or optimistic, and act according to nothing but the orders by that power.
Finally, you own the power, or the power owns you?
Well, so what? You know from the very beginning that only the power matters.
2009-02-10
Year end notes 2008, part 2
21
is missing. don't ask me why.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
stay in love.
23. How many one-night stands?
0
24. What was your favorite TV program?
i don't have a TV set.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no hate list. i am very forgetful of that.
26. What was the best book you read?
the golden notebook – doris lessing
the reader - Bernhard Schlink
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
El pueblo unido jamás será vencido!, and its 36 piano variations composed by Frederic Rzewski
28. What did you want and get?
to be myself.
29. What did you want and not get?
not to be myself.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
WALL‧E
31. What did you do on your birthday?
try not to think of it.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more time free from work.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
order.
34. What kept you sane?
work and not work.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
none.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
economic crisis.
37. Who did you miss?
so many.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
as 37.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
make plans, whatever.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
what did you learned in school today?
Final Thoughts:
life is too short, also too long.
is missing. don't ask me why.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
stay in love.
23. How many one-night stands?
0
24. What was your favorite TV program?
i don't have a TV set.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no hate list. i am very forgetful of that.
26. What was the best book you read?
the golden notebook – doris lessing
the reader - Bernhard Schlink
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
El pueblo unido jamás será vencido!, and its 36 piano variations composed by Frederic Rzewski
28. What did you want and get?
to be myself.
29. What did you want and not get?
not to be myself.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
WALL‧E
31. What did you do on your birthday?
try not to think of it.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more time free from work.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
order.
34. What kept you sane?
work and not work.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
none.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
economic crisis.
37. Who did you miss?
so many.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
as 37.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
make plans, whatever.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
what did you learned in school today?
Final Thoughts:
life is too short, also too long.
2009-02-08
Year end notes 2008, part 1
This is my first blog in English. As Zinta did, some kinds of review of the year 2008 may be a good start. As below:
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
went to Moscow ,the farthest business trip i have ever had.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't set up anything like that last year, neither for this year, i think.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes. unnaturally.
5. What countries did you visit?
as 1.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
time and money. of course.
7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory?
form Oct 2008 to 2009 Jan, i am so busy that i am really afraid of dying at work.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
find a new job and get used to it.
9. What was your biggest failure?
too many to sort.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yes. my left foot which was hurt during service wrenched again.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
daily bread and books.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my lover.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my parents. they are never satisfied with me.
14. Where did most of your money go?
food, housing, transportation, all those basic needs. but very few on dressing.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my new job. at the beginning.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Die Gedanken sind frei, my morning song.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
i am always below the two.
b) thinner or fatter?
thinner.
c) richer or poorer?
poorer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
studying and sports.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
work.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
as it never happened.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
went to Moscow ,the farthest business trip i have ever had.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't set up anything like that last year, neither for this year, i think.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes. unnaturally.
5. What countries did you visit?
as 1.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
time and money. of course.
7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory?
form Oct 2008 to 2009 Jan, i am so busy that i am really afraid of dying at work.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
find a new job and get used to it.
9. What was your biggest failure?
too many to sort.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yes. my left foot which was hurt during service wrenched again.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
daily bread and books.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my lover.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my parents. they are never satisfied with me.
14. Where did most of your money go?
food, housing, transportation, all those basic needs. but very few on dressing.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
my new job. at the beginning.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Die Gedanken sind frei, my morning song.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
i am always below the two.
b) thinner or fatter?
thinner.
c) richer or poorer?
poorer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
studying and sports.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
work.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
as it never happened.
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