坐過最長的一次火車，也是跟你，廣州到昆明，二十六小時。一人一個登山背包，沒預先買車票，兩人位置都在上舖，兩人都帶了大部頭小說，當作參加不斷電的閱讀接力營。結果，十二小時過後，簡直快要幽閉恐懼症發作。躺也不是，做也不是，看書也不是，睡覺也不是。我睡睡醒醒，大部分醒來時，是半夜。翻過身趴著，拉開一角窗簾，看窗外黑壓壓的原野。然後轉頭，確認你還在距離我一公尺的半空中，同樣一公尺高、半公尺寬的臥舖上，長腳也許跨過欄杆，也許正打呼。其餘面貌模糊。
二十六小時之內，所記之事寥寥可數。那鐵道旅行的浪漫想像，到後來，只期盼時間快過去，趕緊靠站。很久之後，我才知道，那種幽閉，也許指涉著，我們之間其實已沒有太多的話可說。
2010-10-03
2010-09-30
Trespassers William - Anchor
Oh our dance was slow
And you fumbled with my hands
Whisper time to sleep
You have dreams awaiting your tired mind
Does your heart get weaker
When you think how far we've to go
Forget all the promises
You're tired and you're drifting and you're low
And if you can't steer
Then it would be safer to drop the anchor
And if you can't feel
It's selfish to use up all of the bandages
I can read your eyes:
if this is real then it'll end
I shouldn't be so surprised
This happens over and over again
Does your heart get fiercer
When you think someday i might go
Forget all the promises
You're tired and you're drifting and you're low
And if you can't steer
Then it would be safer to drop the anchor
And if you can't feel
It's selfish to use up all of the bandages
When you're alone
When you're hollow
Then you'll ask me to
Come and fill you
Come and feel you
Don't think i will do
2010-09-29
Trespassers William - I know
I know i'll never see you
I know i'll never run into your body walking through the crooked streets
I know i'll never hear you
I know i'll never hear you like a sound that wafts inside from outside there
I know that if i waited i know that if i wait a thousand days will lie wasted with thoughts of you
My love i've pictured this: Your violet eyelids
opened to say: here's where you've been
Your lips open to say: my darling it's been so very long and i'm in pain
I know i'll never feel you
I know i'll never get so close to you that i can't smell anything else
I know that it is raining
And i know that the rain will soak you through
And leave you like the tattered sky
I know i go in circles
I know that window panes bring only rain and not your face
My love i've pictured this: Your violet eyelids
opened to say: here's where you've been
Sometimes i picture all your fingers
Sometimes they're crawling down my spine
Sometimes they're buttoning your jacket
Sometimes you're far but you're still mine
Sometimes i picture all your fingers
Sometimes they're crawling down my spine
Sometimes they're buttoning your jacket
Sometimes you're far but you're still mine
I know i go in circles
I know that window panes bring only rain and not your face
2010-06-26
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